Watch Katie get Thinner

Been bad!!!! and feel guilty!!

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 21:11:16 +0200

Hi all,

Been bad today had crisps and chocolate and a processed meal for lunch and one for tea, and also had toast for supper. i feel really bad now, and i ate them because i was feeling poorly and sorry for myself. Now i feel worse, i wont be doing that again!!!! I have tried so hard to get out of the habit of eating because of emotions, and i failed miserabley
today. But hey i shouldnt beat myself up or i will just slip back into my old ways.

to be fair its been going wrong since friday, when i felt really bad first, was ok the weekend and monday but today wow!! well i say the weekend was good, ate too much crusty white bread!!!

Arghhh!!!! im at rock bottom. must go to bed now and start a fresh tomorrow!! can someone give me the answer to keeping my motivation??????

i must have had about 2100 cal, where i have only been eating 1200!! i am going back to work tomorrow so i wont be at home bored and picking!!!

Went back to the doctors today, got more sense out of this doctor, the muscle in the back of my neck is too tight, which may be because of the gym or how my desk is set up at work.

so i am on painkillers and have to stretch it out, i am going back to work as i am sooooo bored here at home.

havent been to the gym for a week, may go back and do some light work.

Maybe ill have better news next week.

On the bright side weighed myself yesterday and had lost another 2.5lb, maybe if i start again tomorrow i can get back on track and lose something this week.

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Been to the Doctors!!

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 20:32:04 +0200

Went to the doctors after work, he thinks my headaches (really bad) may be muscular due to going to the gym and my body not being used to it.

He just suggested stronger painkillers.

I also asked the Doc about my PCOS. I have myself sorted. I have a fresh supply of Metformin. and some medroxyprogesterone to sort me out.

I must admit my diet went up the creek today, but i wont get down i am going to start again tomorrow.

Ive felt that bad i have only been to the gym once this week. I feel so guilty about it as i was doing so well. I feel this has been a set back.

But i must call on my old friend Willpower to get through this.

Willpower is your ability to set a course of action and say, “Engage!”

Willpower provides an intensely powerful yet temporary boost. Think of it as a one-shot thruster. It burns out quickly, but if directed intelligently, it can provide the burst you need to overcome inertia and create momentum.

I will try and muster this over the headache and continue my quest for being a thinner and more confident person.

Breakfast

Poached egg and Tomato on Brown Bread

Lunch

2 roses
Chicken Enchiladas with wedges
Cookie

Tea

Small Chicken Breast Grilled
Pitta Bread
Salad

My lunch let me down today!!!!

But i shall march on defiantly.

God this is a load of waffle. but i am writing as things pop into my head. I doubt anyone is reading this anyway!!

I will be at the gym 5 tims next week to make up.

To be honest i didnt go to asda last week or plan my meals and that has set me back a long way. I will be planning my meals and posting the in the next couple of days!!!

Kate x

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Feeling Ill

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 18:22:22 +0200

Im feeling really bad hve had a headache for about a week now, since yesterday its been so bad i can hardly concentrate. but i have managed to drag myself to work, but unfortunately not to the Gym.

I feel really guilty, but the dizziness i am experiencing would be a bit dangerous at the gym, i went to a walk at lunch time to get some fresh air, and i will do some ab crunches afterwards.

To be honest all i want to do it sleep! So that is what im going to do!!!

The eating is ok, not eating alot to be honest. So im hopeful i'll lose a little weight. watch this space

Breakfast

* Toast - 3 slice ww bread
* Raspberry Conserve : a light scrap
NO BUTTER

Snack

* 2 ryvita corncakes bare

Lunch

* Ham Salad Sandwich on Brown

Snack

* 2 roses chocolates

Dinner

* Small Bowl of Pasta with Dolmio tomato stir in
* Solero Smoothie - Strawberry and Banana

* 1121 Cal **

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Me as a Simpson

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 22:10:16 +0200

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Biscuits!!!

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 19:01:58 +0200

I have been a bit naughty today, i have had about 4 fruit shortcake biscuits, they arent the worst but i am so disappointed with myself, normally i do not buy biscuits for this reason. My mom bought them and put them in the tin.

I have had 1151 calories, when i am allowed 1200. I have eaten less as I am not going to the Gym today.

I am such a worry wart. I dont think one treat in 3weeks is going to hurt.

Back on the wagon tomorrow. No biscuits in the tin now as i put them all into the dustbin!!!

Katie xx

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Weigh in Day!!

Mon, 30 Jul 2007 21:25:06 +0200

Wait for it!!! been to the gym today and had my weekly weigh in!! i have lost 3lb!!!

I am so pleased that is 6lbs in 2 weeks since i joined the Gym, not only have the pounds come off people have noticed too. My shape is becoming more defined instead of squishy!
I have a more defined waist and boobs, my belly doesnt stick out in front of them any more.

I am going to the gym, monday, wednesday and friday. once on the weekend if i can manage it. I also use the fax machine at work upstairs when i sit down stair, i use the fax machine alot so i am up and down all day.

I have just bought some natural remedies to help with my PCOS.

Watch this space. I just love all the energy i have, i am getting used to the girls at work eating all fatty sandwiches, crisps, chocolate, cake etc. Its like a mini personal challenge when i watch them eat it. Its great!!!

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Marilyn Monroe

Sun, 29 Jul 2007 10:29:35 +0200

Well i have just been watching the prince and the showgirl, marilyn Monroe and Laurence Olivier. I just love Marilyn Monroe films!!

I just have to say she much sexier than these size zero rakes. She has a healthy figure, which i believe was a size 16 and was adored my men around the world.

I just think these women who strive for size zero when it isnt their natural state, are terribly sad, they look like a bag of bones and have no sexual appeal at all!!

I have decided when i get to a size 14/16 and i am happy to stay that was, i have recently found a picture of when i was a size 14 and i looked wonderful, any smaller with my broad frame i would love simply awful!!

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I survived

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 19:23:53 +0200

Well i managed another week of the diet, i am feeling good.

It was a girls birthday at work the other day and she bought cakes, I SAID NO!! felt great.
Watched everyone else eating them.

I am now 19st 10. lost another 0.6lb so far this week. next weigh in monday. That was a
sneaky mid week weigh, which i shouldnt have done.

Now for another weekend. I will keep you up dated.

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My Chart

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 21:31:21 +0200

6lb lost 22lb to go

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Sorry its been so long!!

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 20:43:21 +0200

Sorry i havent updated this for a while, my sister was in hospital and nothing to report really.

Today i have been back to the gym, after work. Had a great work out i really love it.

First things first i am 25 years old, married to a wonderful man called Hidayet (hes turkish). I live in Stourbridge, West Midlands.

I work in a Mezzanine Floor manufacturer, i do the purchasing for the works. I have been there 6 months and i really do enjoy it.

I made 3 new years resolutions:

1. Sort out my job - get a new one. - I did this, got rid of my other job and started this new one. (makes me happy)

2. Lose Weight - I suffer from PCOS - I will explain this later. Makes my weight gain, so i lost 2 stone earlier in the year, have 10 to lose. Something happened in March which meant me and hubby had to live apart, through no choice of ours. My diet suffered. He is now back and im well on track to lose the weight.

My first weigh in today and i lost 7lbs. woooohooooo. I was following WW before but this time i am doing a plan which the gym have given me. I know it is expensive to go to the Gym but i need to do it.

3. To get fit. i am going to the gym 4-5 times a week and i will be getting fit.

I have done well so far with the resolutions.

Im surviving at the moment with 1000 calories, slowly my body is getting used to it.

I hope to keep you updated on my quest in becoming thinner.

Katie xxx

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Hello

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 18:17:04 +0200

Hi There. My names katie, I started my diet on Monday, i was 1lb under 20st, when i weighed in on Monday. I have done really well this week.

Im not following WW this time, i have joined a Gyn , ive been there 3 times this week and i am following their diet plan.

After 4 days i feel more energetic ( lil bit achey) and brighter its amazing. I have had no crap food as i call it, choccie, crips, cake, biccies or processed food etc

Ive took the hard route but im sticking to it.

I'll keep you updated on my progress, daily. Ill give you an idea of what ive eaten and what exercise i have done.

Mondays My weigh in so watch this space.

I also want to add:

What is it about being fat?? Do I have a sign on my head saying freak? Yes I may not be a size 8, but I am still human, and have a personality, which many skinny people do not have.

People look at you walking down the street, you can see what they are thinking by the looks on their faces, some are sneering thanking god they are not as fat as me, and thanking him that they can fit into the latest fashion with ease. Others have a look of sympathy on their faces “oh look at her it must be awful for her being like that”.

What makes me angry is that they don’t think there may be other reasons people are fat other than stuffing themselves with fast food and cake. I get “oh you don’t eat that much do you” I can tell they are dying to add, “so why are you so fat” as if I eat as little as possible when out and then proceed home to my trough when I get home like a pig.

People have shouted things in the street, like chunky, fatty etc. Must admit its mostly young childish and immature boys. My family say ignore them they are not worth it. But the truth is it hurts to the core. I HAVE FEELINGS!!

SELF CONFIDENCE is non-existent, I have none, and oh sure people think I am confident, but that’s a cover. I’m the girl who puts herself down before anyone else gets a chance. I bet half the time they aren’t thinking any such thing. But I have no self-belief what so ever. I don’t buy myself nice clothes, its getting the stage where I don’t even put my make up on and go out the house if I don’t have to.

It took all my guts to go to an all womens gym and sign up, but luckily i chose the right one, plenty of normal people to balance out the ones that think they are gods gift in lycra.

This young girl showed me round, and i was really quiet, i could feel it. Agian lack of confidence, making me feel im not as good as her cause im fat.

Well decided last sunday that that was the last day I would feel like that,i am the one keeping myself from what i want. as well as this damn PCOS.

I have stopped myself eating the bad food this week by asking myself, do i really want that chocolate more than i want a baby??? answer is no, so i put it down.

This may sound cheesey but having the will power to say NO!! to something you really want to eat, feels alot better than eating it. I am training my body for the next few weeks to eat less, food but healthier food. because looking at it i was eating alot, spread out throughout the day. Its always someones birthday at work, so cakes are bought, and friday is bancon or sausage sarnie day!! Not any more. I have a 6 week program and i am determined not to stray!!

Katie xx

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